>Study

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I have been thinking hard for the past few days, and nothing seems to make sense in my mind. I don’t know whether it’s good or bad, for I am famous among my friends to have weird, nonsensical and only once in a blue mood to have a logical and sensible thoughts.There are of course things that I wish I didn’t think about because it will be a major distraction to me, especially now that exams is just around that one corner. Then again, thinking is constant in life. It’s either you think of something or nothing. Either way, that’s considered thinking.

The mugging drive has finally came knocking on my head and creeping in my soul. I am beginning to feel the sense of urgency and the love to mug my hearts out tonight, tomorrow and the days to come. I never felt this way before. Okay, that’s a lie. The last time I mugged so hard was Year 2, semester 1 and afterwhich, the motivation drive died on me because it was exhausting to memorise things that I hated back then. Apart from the year 2 memory, the last time where I had diligently mug my heart and soul out was outside the General Office at Bedok North Secondary school for the O levels every, or almost, Singaporean kids have to go through.

Apparently, I am stuck at anthropology as of tonight. I have no idea why because there are apparently no direction for me to study. I am just reading through the slides and trying to make it more sensible in the form of essays and stuff like that. I don’t know whether this is even the right method to study anthropology. Sucks but true. I love brain and behaviour and as of now, that’s the only module I am confident in. I am still waiting patiently and frustratingly for Dr Richard’s reliable and most wanted hints for Psychology 1 and 2. So for now, I shall put my focus on the anthropology and brain and behaviour.

I am heading to school tomorrow to settle the fees and hand up the research participation paper. And then head home to sleep and mug more before heading out to meet Wendy for a short shopping spree. (:

Good night world.

till then, 
toodles

>I tried

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I woke up extremely late today. More like near noon and the feeling is damn shiok because it was raining. The best sleep that I had so far ever since school started like 2 months ago. Sleeping long hours and being in deep sleep is one of the best thing you can ever have after weeks of having lack of sleep.

I actually begin the journey of mugging days but actually failed halfway. ): Started off with brain&behaviour and skipped to anthropology and then back to brain&behaviour and then I felt like sleeping again. It’s a horrible thing to feel and do. But at least I start somewhere today and am really hoping to have the motivation drive to just mug till the arrival of exams. And then hopefully enjoy my well deserved break.

Everyone is talking about wanting to have a getaway. And I want to. But I guess I will be probably fulfilling this next year with a plan to go somewhere over a period of time with a much better income. Then again, the girls, Nina to be specific, talked about going to Batam for a day in October. And I couldn’t agree more. Hopefully we can plan more about the one day affair and probably get more people to go. AND NINA, if you are reading this, I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO IT OKAY! We should just go and not disappoint ourselves and waste this precious month okay! 

Someone told me before that there are always a reason for everything that happened in this world. But what if you cannot find any reason for the things that happened? What if they are just meant to be this way? What if there are really no specific reason to the things that happened? It just happened. 

And if the wait is really worth it and nothing happens,  I would rather just walk away from it. Because then, I am tired of waiting.

till then,

toodles

>Sleepriver

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Mugging had made me less sane and more insane.
My mind is like a huge mess fighting for space.
PY1101 test tomorrow and I want to get it done soon.
I like learning about Psyh but I never once like the idea of test.
I am feeling weird and the mood is going to swing at the wrong direction.
I am yearning for a good long hours sleep.
I am looking forward for the weekend for a long hours of sleep.
If I could give a term for this, I am a sleepriver (sleep deprive-r)

till then,
toodles

>muggers!

>Garfield once said that if you wait long enough, good things will come to you.

I haven’t been productive at all today. Studied a little, watched drama(s) a little, slacked. SLACKED for quite sometime and studied a little here and there. For now, construction technology is getting NOWHERE and it’s the first paper!

WOOHOOO. I’M DEAD.

Am going to MUGGGGGG at terminal 2 cafe inclusive of hot pilots and stewards around. Okay. That’s beside the point. The point is, I will be at the airport terminal 2 this weekend to wreck my brains to study and memorises the drawings and thoery on workers’ safety and stuff like that. I must remember to bring a THICKER sweater too because it’s FREAKING cold and maybe pack lots and lots of food because airport is a money sucker place where everything is freaking expensive! except for fast food which is pretttyyyy reasonable and probably add more fats to me than I ever need.

I’ve been planning POST exams activies and I have tons of activies and plans to do and follow up. Enough to last me till I start studying again. And I so can’t wait. THEN AGAIN, exams come first. URGH.

So, enough is enough. I better get back to the notes. I can actually hear my notes calling out for me to seduce them and read them out loud and be mesmerised by all the figures and drawings that I need to remember. Oh fcuk. The last sentence sounds wrong. In lay man term, I NEED TO STUDY NOW.

Okay bye people. I think you guys are going to be bored with the future post till my exams end because it will be the usual I can’t believe I am blogging when I suppose to be studying but I am taking a break because the modules are such bitches kind of post.

To my classmates and schoolmates and those taking exams,

STOP READING THIS AND GO STUDY NOW!

Wishes all the very best.

till then,

toodles

>Boys Before Flowers

> Current disctraction: Boys Before Flowers
A Korean drama that is being on going in Korea right now. Thanks to Finah for introducing this drama with me. It’s like the meteor garden drama back in 2002 or something in Korean version. Great story line but a little cheesy here and there. Nevertheless, I’ve enjoyed the first 9 episode and this drama is partly the reason why I’m home on Tuesday and Wednesday night. (: And the guys are hot and cute and totally dreamy! GRINS.

So tell me, how am i suppose to mug?!
This drama is a MAJOR distraction for me on Tuesday and Wednesday. American Idol is the next distraction on Wednesday and Thursday. how how how? I can’t resist them. These shows are just toooooo good to miss!

I’m not going to school tomorrow because it’s Q&A for MBW. And and I’m pretty much happy that I’ve done revising for MBW!! And next up, the horrendous and mind tortoring construction technology.

Friday will be technically the last day of school before the 5 papers.
Wish me luck.

till then,
toodles

I can’t deny that i miss you so.

>Last paper tomorrow!

>Out of the 5 days i had before tomorrow’s paper, i just have to fall sick today. To be exact, last night. URGHHHH. And tomorrow’s paper is at 9am and for the past few days, i had dreamt of me waking up for the paper! Daannnng. ):

I must relax.

I’ve finished revising and am hook on watching korean movies online and i ought to stop doing so and continue to revise.

I just can’t wait for tomorrow’s paper so that i can just let out everything that’s being stored in my brain cells.

I think i want to sleep now.

till then,
toodles

>hello love

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Tell me he’s cute and good looking guy ever! 😀 The first picture, i told him to smile with teeth and that’s what he did! HAHA. Meet Raufmartin, currently the youngest in the big family and the most pampered cousin ever! He came over last Friday and i practically put my 100% attention on him because he loves attention and had make a BIG mess in my room! HAHA.

I wanted to type a big big HOOORAY here because i’ve finish revising all topics for tomorrow Building Economics paper but decided not to because after tomorrow’s paper, i still have one more to go which is *big sigh* Contract Administration.

Oh ya, I bet some of my friends reading this will be thinking like since when this lazy Fidah study way before her exam and not cramming last minute like she always does? Ehhhhh. Doesn’t mean i always study last minute, i will ALWAYS do it ah. I’m a changed woman girl. (: I cannot tahan last minute cramming already. Not good for health, not good for brain. And yes, i started my revision, days before my paper and not one day before my paper. Good change? Say GOOD job Fidah. HAHAHAHA.

Also, i got the motivation drive somehow which came from a lot sources. Like one source is the 31st August 2008! The baking session with the Bersepai Girls (part of us) at Nina’s place. The menu is out. It will be like baking and cooking and snacking and gossips catching up session! I know i know. It’s like the day before fasting month. But oh well, that’s the only day we can come up with where everyone of us can make it because NO MORE PRELIMS (for Amina) and NO MORE EXAMS (for me and Nina) and it’s like a celebration for Syaa, Asmah and Susu for starting school? Another source is the burning desire to get into University. Can’t tahan the feeling la people. I just need to buck up and get the freaking grades to secure a place in Uni. Actually, i’m between 2 courses in which i want to major on. Those who know, know. Those who don’t know, don’t ask. It’s complicated ah. Actually, these are two major sources of my motivation drives. Another OBVIOUS one is FOOD to accompany me through the “journey” of boring and plain and hungry revision session be with alone or with friends (:

Bestie just message me. I’m glad her grandma is okay. Should probably be visiting her tomorrow before my paper. See how my schedule is like.

I need to sleep now. HA.

2 more papers baby! Faster end faster end.

till then,
toodles

>Distraction.

>I’ve been trying to mug hard like how i did for CT paper where i got like 9937291873219873219% motivation to study and i can just go on full blast concentration mode on the topics although it’s pretty dry and some are totaly senseless. Like how constructing a drain actually wow you?

Anyway, i’m mugging or rather, was trying to mug like some nerd of the century on Building Economics which is this Wednesday paper at 6pm which is like in the evening and hopefully the class faces the west and my seat no. 101 is at the window so that i can just gaze at the sunset (if there’s one) and get mesmerize with it and maybe some motivation to do the paper well and if not, i will just daydream if i can’t answer any questions which i don’t think this will ever happen and if it does, i should kill myself after the paper, seriously.

At this hour, 12:58am, i have ZERO motivation to study and probably just too tired to concentrate and that’s why i’m blogging.

I wanted to finish up on the Italy post but i’m just too lazy. It’s finishing soon just need to complete 2 more days on the trip. I just started a draft post on IBM and SIBF which i think i will be done with it faster than the Italy post.

After all the questions and answer, i still got disapproval on just one thing. Might as well they don’t ask or what. They just have to bring my hopes high and then crashes it again. I rather not think about it at all or anymore. I’m pretty much lost of what to do right now. It’s as if darkness just overtake the light out of me. And whoever said money is not important, think again.

I cannot be distracted by such matters anymore. Seriously, it’s eating me up silently.

and i want to meet up with bestfriend. it’s been awhile ):

till then,
toodles

>it’s 2:53am

>I’m pretty much awake right at my room, more like study room and my room is in the mess *again*

I’m in the blogging mood but yet i’m more to the sleeping mood.
AND CT paper is just less than 7 hours away!

Good job Fidah.

till then,
toodles

>THE MUGGING PROCESS.

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• Providing & bringing site piling plant for steel sheet pile/bored pile piling plant, assemble, maintain, dismantle & subsequent removal upon completion of piling works.
• STHP __________ temporary sheet pies to lines and levels shown on drawings and including withdrawals of piles upon completion of the whole works
• DITTO but for permanet sheet piling all a.b.d
• E.O temp/perm steel sheet piles for corner/junction piles all a.b.d

AHHH. MBW TMR AND I HATE PILING WORKS!!!!
why why why why can’t the lecturers just tell us whether sheet piling or bored piling is coming out? WHY MUST WE PREPARE BOTHHHHHHHHHHHH. I feel so miserable.

Oh. that’s probably the reason why we are called students and they are called lecturers.

IT paper today was actualy okay. I didn’t die or faint or whatever but manage to pull through the 2 freaking hours in the cold lab room. HA. It was good, i think. *prays*

AND AND AND AND AND AND tomorrow is ADVANCED MEASUREMENT FOR BUILDING WORKS. Seriously, they should just tell us what’s COMING OUT. I mean they did. But there are many choices. Okay , fine. They had NARROWED it down. BUT STILL.

This is totally random. My break time is up. I need to get back to mugging.

till then,
toodles