Hello space.

A really quick update.

I missed typing word after word, building up a paragraph after a paragraph. I missed that moment when I can just sit down at the comfort zone with a cup of coffee in my hand and gathering my thoughts, forming them into words and sentences and just let it burst through the fingertips typing it all out.

To sum up my life since the last update, BUSY.

It’s a pretty bad excuse to not update this space of mine but all I want to do every single day is to just catch up the hours of sleep that I had missed or to just snuggle under my blankets (yes, even though Singapore’s weather screams HOT AND HUMID). I am just that tired and I swear I have a lot of things in my mind to just let out.

But being this busy is good. It’s the healthy kind of busy. I enjoy my work and I think as of now, there’s nothing more than this, more than where I want to be. These past months had been eventful. So many things that had happened, so many feelings and emotions got invested, so many wonderful, painful, beautiful memories created. I have no idea where to start, really. One thing for sure, this kind of busy is my kind of busy. It’s something that I had adapted to back in the diploma days where I had 6 days of intensive band rehearsals (and sectionals) every week  on top of the regular school hours and where Mondays were my only off days which I have school to attend to you. It’s the kind of busy I had missed, a kind of busy where I know I was being productive and wasting no time at all.

Then again, being this busy makes you lose few things or so. I haven’t been going out to enjoy myself for ages. I have overdue meet ups with friends that were sealed with words and promises but I just had no time to make time to meet and chill because I had been busy in other parts of my life (i.e. work and language classes) and keep postponing just because … I was busy. Heck, I haven’t had any me time for myself. There last me time I had was back in summer in Seoul, where I was wondering around in circles, exploring, having a cup of good damn coffee and slices of tiramisu and a couple of donuts.

And here I am now, typing this out because I finally got the time and motivation to log in and update this space of mine. I am on leave, and all that I have been doing since the start of my leave is sleep. Yes, sleep. I only go out when my friends ask me out. Other than that, I am at home, in the comfort of my room, sleeping, resting, nua-ing. I know I know. I am wasting like chunks and chunks of time but I guess I had reached my peak of exhaustion that the minute I was on leave, my whole body shuts down to just recuperate – physically, mentally, emotionally.

Anyway, pictures highlighting the events that had occurred the past months.

A very good friend of mine got married back in September! (: So happy for her! It was two days worth of celebration and had enjoyed every moment of it. Wishes the best in her marriage and last forever babe! ^^ One down, 6 more to go.

I finally went to Universal Studio Singapore (USS) courtesy of my work. I know, loser. HAHAHA. I am just the kind of person who wouldn’t pay to go in such places because I don’t play rides. I know, loser again. HAHAHA. I AM TERRIFIED OF RIDES. LIKE WOAHHHHHHHH. Actually, I will go ah. Just that I will have a hard time parting away from the money spent ……

One thing strike out of the bucket list! I WENT TO THE DAMN GREAT WALL OF CHINA!!!!! HAHAHA. Sorry the sudden burst. Been wanting to go since the day I know of its existence and the day I went, I was like woahh, I am really here!  Didn’t went up all the way because of the time constraint but I would love to go again to finish climbing. Was told that we have about 1 – 2 more fortress before the end. RAWRR, that will be on my bucket list – to climb all the way to the top of the great wall of China!

A pretty dorky kind of post but there are so many things I want to update so that I can read it over and over again in future with the stupid goofy smile on my face. That being said, I think I have reach the limit of my words capacity and the time to blog.

till then,
toodles

>Changi Airport T2

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Live updates from me to you from the airport of Singapore. 😀
And no, i’m not flying anywhere during this short break although Singapore is going to be like a ghost town for next 2 days or so due to the upcoming CNY. It’s just like a short visit to Changi Airport for one simple reason: POPEYEs! Because my dear bestie is pregnant and am craving for chickens. She’s retardedly retarded. Nevertheless, I love her thousands more than she loves me. And other reasons are my bestie is in her hardworking mood and she decided to like do her homework and as for me, I just want to find inspiration to take pictures around the airport which obviously failed because good looking angmohs kind of distracted me.

anyway,
HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

shall update later!

till then,
toodles

>SCHOOL.

> Week 3 of school is coming to an end and so far, school has been nothing but full of laughters and craps from the classmates. Tuesday, without any discussion of what so ever, the fyp mates coincidentally wore red tops to school. And yes, today is Ronnie’s birthday. So Happy 21st birthday ronnie!

So far, I haven’t been updating the blog as much as i want to because mostly things that i want to blog about are far too personal and pretty much on the emotional side. Some already know the downfall that I am facing, and I’m pretty much in a state where I can just fall down any moment now. But holding on to the faith I am having, I’m pretty much strong in a way that I can handle things at the moment.

Yesterday was great. Met up with the boys after school for random meet up session and had dinner. It was really nice to meet up with them. It’s been awhile I suppose. Somewhat discussed the trip after graduation. And most probably the destination will be KL, Malaysia. But i’m still researching on Langkawi and other places. I really really want to get out of Singapore. Maybe a little short get away before I graduate will be nice. Maybe just to the beach and lie down on the sand or something to clear this mind of mine.

And somehow, I really wish I can go overseas to study. Really. But, those who know, knows.

Take care, I will back with bubbly post soon.

till then,
toodles

>Concers Spree!

>A super quick update because I’ve got nothing much to blog about.

OBOG: LIVE!
Held last Thursday, at YST Hall was great, i guess. Enjoyed myself as a performer and I had my share of good laughs and happy moments. Although there were a little screws here and there, everything went on smoothly. Mr Fabian Lim’s solo was just superb and I enjoyed listening to his uber cool solo (: Took pictures. I totally not in the mood to blog much. Thanks for those who came (:

Pictures are found here: #obog

3 more days to MD and it’s time to say goodbye. I wonder how the post concert going to be like. I wonder whether I will cry or what so ever. I wonder how everything going to end. I wonder whether things will stay. I wonder and wonder . . . . . . . . . . . . …..

Why do good things have to come to an end?
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I have no idea.

till then,
toodles

>Concerts Spreeeees

> Says hello to Canon 450D (:

MST ended last Friday and oh boy, I totally felt free after the last paper. The papers aren’t as bad as I thought and it was manageable on my side. Alhamdullilah. Just a little worried for Estimation and Building Services though. Anyway, it’s over and no point thinking about it.

I made a mistake to the previous post. Dad’s 62 while mum’s 51 this year. My bad, made a mistake on their birth year.

Anyway, to all the Muslim in the world,
SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDIL ADHA (:

I totally got no inspiration to blog now, so I will end this post with Concerts Advertisement (:
Do support yeah?

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Yong Siew Toh Conservertory Hall

11 December 2008, 7:30pm

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Featuring: Ghost Train, Cuban Overture

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Victoria Concert Hall

17th December 2008, 7:30pm

Tickets at $12 (stall)/ $15 (circle)

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23rd December 2008, 7:30pm

Tickets at $12 (stall or circle; free seating)

Featuring band pieces such as Symphonic Overture, Blue Shades, etc

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Do attend and give your support (:

till then,

toodles

>DPFM 3B/02, year 08/09

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Class’ Boys
Class’ Girls

The wonderful bunch of people (:

The totally crazy class ever!

Class photo for year book (:

Editted by yours truly.

One concert down, 4 more to go.

till then,

toodles

>Summary of Week 2.

>What a week!
Week 2 is over and Week 3 has just began!

Let’s do a sum up since, I’m in the pretty good mood to blog. So let’s make good use of it.

2nd week started out with Philyouth commitee meeting in the morning (ohh. I’m the kind of person who considered Sunday as the first day of the week) and it was funny. Crapped a little in the midst of serious issue. And then head to AMK hub for lunch. The best part? Khai Boon drove that day and yes, we got a free ride in his luxurious car! Awesome car! The guys, Khairul, Fifi, Hong Ghee, and Mr Driver himself, Khaiboon, were talking about the car specs and such and duhhh, I kept quiet la. I know nuts about car. But whatever, I enjoyed the ride a lot lot lot! Philyouth was great, i think. Listened to SIBF recording and I think we did sounded good that day. The recording showed, so yeah. hahaha. (: After rehearsal, took a cab to Aunt’s place at Punggol. Shared the cab with Nicholas who alighted at Sengkang.

The camwhoring session with the two cousins above were totally not expected. I wanted to watch Mr and Mrs Smith and eat at the same time and don’t know what the heck happened, Ain took my phone and we took over 30plus of nonsensical and UNGLAM pictures of the 3 of us. Pictures are uploaded at my facebook account. (: Food was great. Did catching up with the above, was a childcaretaker for a moment, slept with Grandma for awhile, talked about the future with Mummy and went home slightly after 11pm since I have school the next day. bummer.

I can’t exactly remember what happened each day till Friday. I only remembered some. So pardon me. My timetable has finally been FINALIZED. (:

Monday: 9am to 5pm, 1 1/2 hr break

Tuesday: 830am to 530pm, 1 hr break, SP band in the evening

Wednesday: 1pm to 3pm, Sectionals in the evening

Thursday: 10am to 1230pm, CCSS, Syo in the evening

Friday: 1pm to 5pm, SP band in the evening

That’s the timetable. Want to ask me out after school? Choose the days properly. *winks

Random shot of the FYP mates (:

Monday, I was late for MBW lecture for like 15mins and thus missing the first part of the measurement for Drainage and yes, you guess it. I couldn’t be bothered to listen to the rest of the lecture because each item is like link to each other and I was lost. All I did was to just copy down the measurement and such. Estimation&Costing lecture was horrible. I left the class about 45mins before it end because I was hungry and I wasn’t in the mood to listen. I know I know. I’m horrible. End the monday with the irritating CT tutorial which i blabla did.

Tuesday was horrendous. Project management then Building Services lectures and then Estimating&Costing tutorial. Met up with Nicholas and Darren. It was the best dinner I ever had with just the 3 of us and seriously, they made my day just like that. An interesting discovery of how cute Nicholas is to the OMGosh, it’s someone I know who did all those crap. *winks. Had band. Solo com was great. Great experience I had. And of all people, the other judge was Mr Chiang. HAHAHA. I wanted to laugh when I entered the room. I did okay la, below Mr GJ expectation which I think he will kill me if he heard me play because I let my nerves took control of me. Need to do more of such thing for more confidence (: Congrats to JiaRong and Vincent! 😀

Wednesday was a short yet fast day. Nothing much to elaborate. School starting at 1pm is just awesome. I had like 9hours of sleep because of this. Sectionals was fine. I just hope that more people will turn up for sectionals and Zhongqi faster come and teach, then I can practise with the section also. Whatever happened after this, I shall not elaborate.

Thursday was another short day in school. 1030am and i finised the tutorial at like 11am. Like I mentioned in the previous post. I went to Dover then to Bedok to AMK back to Bedok. Great day of catching up too (:

Friday was kind of another short day. Skipped CSW to go down to NUS. Met Asmah and everything was great. Managed to finish one sketches and afterwhich head back to SP for band. Band practice was okay. Sat beside the gila girl, aka Suhaila, and I kind of had fun talking and disturbing her. It’s been awhile since I do that in band. (: Supper was next and home sweet home after that.

Saturday was okay. Skipped BN band in the morning. Rushed down to JJC for Fanfare rehearsal and then to Syo. Syo was okay la. This time round, I don’t know why the feel is not there. Maybe because ___________________. Ya, those who knows, know. Or just maybe I don’t feel the urgency and the excitement to the concert just yet. Right after this November concert, there’s this choral festival which syo is involve. I don’t know how I’m going to cope. I shall wait for more details and decide how things going to work out. Programme for Syo for the year 2009 is up. 5 concerts in a year with exciting programmes. I can’t really forsee my 2009 until my graduation. For now, I will enjoy as much as I can performing with the orchestra.

That’s how my week 2 was and Week 3 has begun!

Philyouth rehearsal today was okay. I have a lot of things to settle and stuff. I enjoyed today’s rehearsal but was tired by the time Mr Chiang did El Cam. Dinner was next and home sweet home. Thanks Shi Chun for the accompany home (:

Random: I chatted with Natasha Tan Yun Ting! An old classmate from secondary school. haha.

Despite of this good I’m having, I’m pretty much pissed off with the family issue thing. She’s just damn lucky to have this side of the family where everyone can’t wait to see/know more about her and all those stuff but, all i can say is too bad la. Sometimes being the oldest grandchild sucks, because you got to do all those stuff like bringing everyone together because family values and unity and all those thing is pretty much important. And as the oldest, you are expected to help and know how to deal such things when occured. And all I can tell the old people is just it takes time to get to know each other and all. No point forcing each other and forcing whatever knowledge with know about the incident. Time will tell and if I can wait, so can you. Even if it takes another 15 years for her to want to know us, I don’t mind waiting. Afterall, she’s family. I will wait.

It’s scary how the future is going to be when you are unsure about the path you want to take. Dreams are always there. It’s the conversion of the dream we had to turn into reality. I lack of courage and have thousands of negative feedback on my dream. Isn’t it sad to feel this way? I guess the people who can really cut you deep are the people you love the most. I have roughtly 3 months to choose the path. Right now, I’m clueless. Definitely, clueless.

My good mood is gone. I need to do some stuff now.

Goodnight.

till then,
toodles