Of appreciation and,

I usually have the habit of updating this space when I am usually overseas in either June or December. And it usually on the night before I depart for home or on the day itself. This time round, even with the ample time I have to update, I decided not to. I realised that I am, at times, too dependent on the technology, thinking about the things I want to update that I had forgotten to immersed myself with the present and let the emotions of that moment to beautify itself. So this time round, I decided to put the post on hold and just breathe and go with the flow of the trip that I had.

Surprise, surprise. This #summer2014, I decided to “let go” the wanting to go back to Seoul and try out some place new. I had been to Italy years back and I remembered loving the culture there. Jannah and her mum were planning to go back to the Netherlands to visit their relatives and they had invited to follow. And after the financial planning, and letting go of the wanting to go back to Seoul, I decided to take up the invitation and follow them to Netherlands. But I wasn’t there entirely for 2 weeks. I decided that since I am heading to Europe anyway, I should visit one country that I had always wanted to go. London, the United Kingdom. And so, with all the advices I could get from all different friends that I have (which I am really thankful for! love you guys so much!), and the planning, and financial part, my #summer2014 trip was planned! To London for 5 days, and the rest of the days in the Netherlands (which I had visited a couple of provinces that the country had to offer me with all the exciting Dutch stuff!) and a day at Antwerpen, Belgium (which I am really thankful for Aunty Ingrid for driving us there for a day!).

I was ecstatic! I really don’t know what to feel, really. I was just so excited because I was really looking forward to visit London and I wasn’t disappointed! Despite of the expensive transport and food (which I don’t really care much, because hey! I am in London!), I had really enjoyed being there. It’s a pity because 5 days were really too short to explore the whole of London (and I had wished I had planned to go other parts of UK, but maybe another time; like next year maybe?). I went to places that I wanted to go. I LOVE LOOKING AT BIG BEN. I know, I sound crazy. But I spent like an hour or so at that bridge looking at Big Ben and the surrounding. The weather was perfect. Cold with the touch of the heat of the sun. (I wore shorts on some days, but whatever, the weather was awwwwweeessoome!). And zomg, I went to Warners Bros Studio for Harry Potter. I WAS A TOTAL FAN GIRL. I couldn’t control my over pouring of emotions when I was there. I was not disappointed! I mean, they could have more things but whatever they have there is already enough to enlighten my fan girl moments. Took the city bus tour to have the overview feel of London as we lacked of “more time to explore” and the tour just gave me the “I need to come back to London again!” feels. And which of course, I really hope I have another chance of going there again. Insyaallah. (:

So that was London and the next stop was the Netherlands. I had a nice accommodation stay with Jannah’s aunty and she is a lovely lady with so much general knowledge of the world. She’s so hipped and cool and I don’t know, she’s just an awesome lady. Aunty Ingrid is so awesome, I think anyone who meet up with her will love her for who she is. Her house is in Utrecht, a province in Netherlands. It’s about 30 to 40 mins train ride to Amsterdam and Rotterdam and about 2 hours drive to Antwerpen, Belgium. Netherlands gave me another perspective of life. I had learned so much from there; from life choices and decisions, to experiences of people of different nations/life. Some things I learned are directly being told to me but most of the things I had learned, are from the walks, and the talks and the observing of people there (whether I had directly or indirectly in contact with them). Oh, I had also went to Volendam where the windmills are, as well as the cheese factory and their traditional Dutch shoes factory. The trip to Netherlands is more of the chilling and taking our time kind of trip. I love Amsterdam, I like Utrecht. Each places offered different sides of the Netherlands and everything is so unique. And zomg, World Cup fever was on when I was in Netherlands. I can totally feel the world cup fever gushing and running through the blood of the people of Netherlands. The country spirit was awesome. They won two games (I watched both games!) and the town was literally in orange in support of their national team! They were cheering, and celebrating (there was even like fireworks in Utrecht after they won the first game!). It was really cool to be part of this. It’s like woah, totally cool!

Unlike going to Seoul, I was kind of looking forward to go home at the end of the trip. Don’t get me wrong. I had tons of fun during this trip. Then again, every trip offers different memories, different experiences and you learn something different. I was looking forward to home on the positive side of life. I couldn’t wait to see my parents and tell them what I had learned, see, experience. This trip had taught me so many things that one cannot learn from the books. I began to develop this feeling of appreciation towards people in my life, especially to those who had played a significant role in my life, whether from the earlier days or currently. Regret accompanied this appreciation feels because there are some people who I took for granted or some who I did not express my gratitude or appreciation or whatever to them.

This feeling of appreciation that developed in me was so huge, that at times, I am overwhelmed with this discovery. I am a woman with little words (I know; boring). I hardly give compliments as well as receiving them (I don’t know, I am just not use to people complimenting me. I am just a plain Jane. Maybe even boring, but you get what I mean). I usually say nasty things or straight to your face kind of thing. I hardly express my appreciation or happiness to people. I see expression of feelings as the crumbles to the wall I had built around me for the past years. And I always believe in independence of one responsibility to life. Then, I realised, it sucks to be alone. I had been alone almost all my life, I think it’s time to open up a little of the wall to let someone come in. This is getting complicated. I will save this explanation another time. This topic is too deep for me and even thinking about it makes me kind of emotional. I have friends, wonderful friends who are there for me. I talked to them about this and sometimes I feel that I should let things out even more. Because I feel that if you let things out from whatever you are holding on to and it’s not that worth it to do so, you will feel much much, extremely better than before. And of course, say a little prayers to thank your Creator (in which whatever religion you believe in). Little prayers come in a long way, you may not see it now but somehow you know that He always listen. (:

Pretty long update. And I am looking forward for more. There are just so many things going through the head now. HAHAHA.

till then,
toodles

 

 

 

 

 

 

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สวัสดีค่ะ (:

Good evening.

Currently, sitting in a very awkward feel in the living room to blog. I know, I’m weird. How can I feel awkward in my own house right? Right. Anyway, the only reason that I am currently in my living room, blogging out is because about 5minutes ago, the family decided to order take away and I am on ‘stand by’  to receive the food. I am so hungry now! The last meal I had was at like 1pm!

Anyway, the urge to update appeared out of the blue and here I am typing this out. A friend asked once why bother updating when no one reads anyway? I don’t know. Maybe writing or typing words keep me sane and life/thoughts organised It’s like a cheap therapeutic way of calming one soul. Don’t judge, everyone is different. At least I am not junking on food or staring in space and let the mind control the brain and all the unnecessary thoughts jumbled together to give me that hazy fuzzy feel about life.

So . . . my life since the last updated post has been . . . challenging. I think I have been using the word ‘challenging’ tad too much for my liking. I mean, I can use words such as difficult or tough but I feel that it’s not difficult, it is just challenging. Like I feel that if I am to use the word difficult, it just has that negative feel and I probably get through my days every day with ease. Challenging is more like of a challenge, where if I can complete the challenge, I achieve something and that feeling I get is pleasant, positive kind of feel. So yes, my days/life have been challenging. I am not complaining, really. If I am complaining, I have already begin ranting at the start of this post.

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Any oh how, I had a short mini trip out of the challenging days. A trip to Bangkok with Jouie, a day after term 1 ended. It was a really nice, relaxing, chilling 7 days trip (despite of the hot sun but I had fun under the sun). We were really taking our time to go places, shopping, eating, dreaming, sleeping, chilling during our trip. And the hotel that we stayed at was fabbbbbbbb! A total recommendation from me to you (whoever is reading this anyway). The hotel is Berkeley Hotel at Pratunam. A newly built and opened only last year, everything about the hotel is good. Nothing much to complain about (except that they need to have more variety for the breakfast [but there are already a lot –  from western to asian food; and they will have one counter where everyday, the menu for that particular counter changed according to whichever they are serving]). The hotel services are excellence and everyday we come back to clean towels and really really neat made beds (as if it was our first day entering our room). So yes, check the hotel out if you guys are heading to Bangkok. Currently, my favourite hotel out of all the hotels I have been to  (whether it is in Bangkok or other places).

So the trip ended with a bittersweet note. Sweet because we had totally kind of max our leave and had the best relax days since the start of the year and bitter because leave is ending and work was coming. Bangkok will one of the few places that I will frequent now and the future! (oh ya, no riots or protests when we were there. It was kind of funny because everyone there were like ‘you came at the right time. The protest just stopped’ and we were ‘yeah…..’ because we don’t really know how to react to that, you see).

So term 2 is here or rather, the ongoing term. Challenged days had gone by and challenging days coming up. The current motivation for me to go through the challenging days is the upcoming summer trip! Really excited and I still can’t believe I have already book my flights! A pity as of now that I can sit and research on the things I want to do. Work is piling and other personal commitments (like losing weight, watching my diet, planning winter and 2015 trips, strengthening all sort of relationships with people [family included] are also piling. Fret not, Insyallah, everything will be done soon and I can sit down and do some research for summer!

So … I was reading this post again and there is really no main agenda of this entry. I just felt the need to just log in and type something because yeah, too many things in the mind.

So till then,
toodles

 

Bring me flowers

2014-01-31-20-10-23_deco2013 adventures in 4 seasons.
Bangkok, Seoul, Beijing, Seoul
(Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter)

HAPPY NEW YEAR! SELAMAT TAHUN BARU! 新年快乐! あけまして おめでとう ございます! 새해 복 많이 받으세요! BONNE ANNÉE! สวัสดีปีใหม่ ! FELICE ANNO NUOVO! FROHES NEUES JAHR! FELIZ AÑO NUEVO!

OMG. I am just so bad at updating the space. Like, I have ten thousands of inspirations since December 25th to log in and typed everything that was running through my head but just didn’t do so just because I am busy. Terrible bad excuse I am telling you first. Busy is just so common nowadays to use as an excuse; whether it’s for personal or social time or whatever. Personally hate to use busy as an excuse but well, sometimes I have to, I guess. The minute I had reached Singapore on December 25th, after the awesome short meet up slash breakfast with Finah (because she’s such an angel and awesome friend of mine who picked me up in the morning [my flight reached Singapore at 6am btw] and we had starbucks for breakfast), I am back to work. Literally, in the forms of emails and planning and catching up my breath with personal and social life, which was not that bad considering that I am okay with being busy and packed schedule because I hate doing nothing except when I am on vacation/holiday. But in the midst of “being busy“, I had missed having my me time.

And so, we bid farewell to 2013 just about a month and 9 days ago. 2014 is a brand new year. 365 days of memories waiting to be created, life choices and decisions to be made, mending broken relationships, letting go of things, people, memories. A brand new year where opportunities are waiting for you to do what you want to do and what you want to achieve.

To be  honest, I am excited. I can’t remember when was the last time I am actually excited for a brand year. But yes, I am excited for 2014. I don’t really know why but I have this feeling a lot of things are going to take place and changes are expected. Both the good and bad, of course. And I think 2014 will be the year of changes. Like lots of changes. And plus, I am going to be in my mid 20s this year (25 years old, in case you can’t count). Like really. Can’t believe time just flew by like that. Fly ~

I haven’t exactly set down the goals I wanted to achieve this year but already have a few that I am determined to achieve it. Some goals in 2013 was put on hold last year and I am bringing the goals in 2013 in the hopes that I can fulfill it by the time the year ends. There are so so many things I want to do in 2014, I don’t know where to start. I had learned so much in 2013, I can’t wait to put some of the things that I have learned into good use.

One thing that I had learned in 2013, I really need that time alone with myself. A break from everything and everyone. That moment when I am really alone, my mind actually clears up and I can think clearly with whatever issues I was facing at that point of time. A bit sad, in a way because only when I am alone, I realised the actual issue(s) that I have in me. And then it’s kind of a little weird, because usually when you are alone, stupid thoughts will attack you and you can’t breathe and then you will be finding people to talk to and all. Yes, I know that feeling. I have that all the time whenever I am facing issues in life. But I realize, being alone means I can be one with myself and somehow I am able to construct whatever I had issues with and seeing them myself. I can’t solve everything alone of course but being one with myself, I am able to understand myself better. Like really better with no influences from other people (which is not really a bad thing, really). It’s lonely but I have been alone since like  forever. So being alone isn’t that bad. Then again, being lonely and being alone are totally different things. So I like being alone (even though I get the lonely feels sometime).

I have so many people to thank to who had/have been there for me in 2013. I don’t think I was able to get through the start of 2013 without the help of these people. My 2013 started really bad and all I want to do is hide and do nothing at all. It got really bad a few months after that. Things only start to pick up at the second half of the year which I am really thankful for. I don’t really remember how I manage to even pull through 2013 but I really glad I did. Plus the deserving trip I had to Seoul in December, it was a nice wrap up to my 2013.

Okay here goes (even though I have no idea who reads my blog anyway but I am just going to post this anyway).

The thank you list (in no particular order)

  1. Jouie, Jasmine, Merilyn. Thank you for being there from the start of us being in PL. I have no idea what I will do without you girls. I get my strength and motivation from you to get through the days in school and to be a better person, a better teacher for my students. Sorry for the annoyance and random nonsense that I always do but that will still be continued in 2014 and I know you girls don’t really mind anyway, I am such a great entertainer (with Jouie)! Cheers to this friendship formed and may we get better and stronger in the year ahead! LOVE YOU GIRLS PLENTY! ^^
  2. Mr. David. For being the most awesome dad a girl could ever have. I think I wouldn’t be here without your ultimate support and motivation and your fabulous upbringing for me. I love how you make me independent by letting me having a space of my own and only to intervene when you feel that I’m doing things out of hand. I sincerely appreciate of the advices that you gave and continue to give and I really love that you have vast general knowledge of anything that I can think of. Thank for you being there for me all these while. I love you daddy! (:
  3. Moses’ Daughter (Amina Maisara). Sincerely, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for being a dear friend to me. Thank you for guiding me back to the path that I should be heading and reminding me that it’s okay to question and be curious about my faith. For being there from the start of my career journey and keeping my nonsense secrets from the world. You are one of my treasured friend Amina and I am planning to keep you in my life till Jannah (InsyaAllah) ^^ .
  4. Detective/Partner in Crime (Finah). Despite of our age differences, it was never an issue when you and I sit down and talk. Just talk about you and me, about our differences in life, about the struggles and challenges, about the fun and adventurous things that happen, about the past, the present and the future, about everything under the sun. I had always enjoyed our conversations. And our investigations skills are almost flawless when combined! I am looking forward for more adventures in whatever our life brings us to or what we bring to our life. Love you lil’ girl! 😀
  5. Ng Cai Yu (CY). You are one of my juniors that I still keep in touch with and one of the juniors that I know (and feel) that our bonding together just get better as days passed. There so many things that I have learnt from you. You have no idea how you actually inspired me in some aspect of my life. I am still learning and I am not the best person that you can talk to for advices and such. But I will be here in 2014 and the years after like how I think I have been there for you in 2013 and the years before. I will cheering you on your life journey towards achieving your goals. And hey, if you need anyone to just talk, I am just a phonecall away (: (p/s: and of course, our love for the two boys theogun <3)
  6. Maimunah. Like Finah, our age differences doesn’t mean anything between you and me. Like Cai Yu, you are one of my juniors that I still keep in touch with and one of the few that I am close to. Despite of your nonsensical childish self, you are a wonderful young lady who have yet to discover your calling in life and believe me when I say, you are much more mature than me in some aspect of life. I haven’t been there for you as much as I would like to but I am always here if you need me. And we still have to sit down together to talk and settle what you need to do to take that one step forward towards what you want to do in life. We had an adventure in 2013, looking forward for next. (:
  7. Raihan, Farzanah. The two have no idea how much you girls make a difference in my life. I love the two of you (even though I hardly express my love to the two of you). I always enjoy our time together despite of our numerous failed outings like going to the movie ends up going to eat instead and stuff like that. Although you girls spam the group chat like there’s no tomorrow, I don’t really mind because you guys make the day better with your nonsenses (: I am glad we are still together after leaving DD. Thank you for being there in 2013 and let’s continue to have a blast in 2014 and the years after! ^^  (p/s: Farzanah, 선생님 asked when are we going back for class!)
  8. 영현언니. 보고싶어 ): Thank your for your hospitality during my stay (almost all) in Seoul. In December last year where we spent a lot of time together, I have learned so much from you – from being a young lady, to achieving goals, to become a better person. So many things that you have indirectly taught me everything I am in Seoul. We got closer as time goes on and your random occasional texts always make me smile and miss you more. I can’t wait to see you again 언니! Keep in touch and time will pass till I see you again! 많이 감사합니다! 사랑해!

These are some of the people that I want to thank. Please don’t be mad. There are many other people who have made my 2013 lovely and I am sorry if you are not being mentioned. But really, for those who have made 2013 awesome, thank you so much. I hope 2014 will be a blast for all of us!

SAMSUNG CSCHad adventures with friends, work and self in 2013. Used up most of my leave for friends and personal trip last year. I am not sure how 2014 travels will go about. Definitely lesser than last year I assumed. But definitely going back to the usual place in December, I guess. I don’t really know because I am the kind of person who will just go with the flow. Depending on financial, flight and accommodation availability and of course, spontaneity, I will go wherever I think I will want to go at that moment in time. So surprise me 2014, surprise me. And of course, the plans that had been crafted earlier, I am coming after you.

And of course, in 2014, it’s all about the #gojer attitude or #justgo attitude.

till then,
toodles

My life, as it is

some things don’t last forever, but some things do. Like a good song, or a good book, or a good memory you can take out and unfold in your darkest time, pressing down on the corners and peering in close, hoping you still recognize the person you see there

It’s the last week of July 2011 and I am sitting here, in my room thinking what have I done for the past few months of 2011. There’s nothing that I have regret doing so, other than probably regretting quitting my job but it’s for a good cause and in the long run. I have sorted out the personal affairs with my parents regarding my needs and the family needs and whatsnot. I have awesome friends with me that I can never be more thankful for. I have cleared my level 1 to 3 modules for my course and have already began the journey of my final year in my course. All this is done and although it seems that I have done so much, it feels so little. Maybe it’s because I did the things I need to do but there’s no accomplishment behind it. You get what I mean? Like I do these things because I am expected/supposed to do NOT because I want to do. I guess, the meaning behind this “accomplishment”, to me personally, means something that I had achieved amidst the things I am/was doing. That being said, I feel empty despite of all the heavy workloads/schedules I had for the past months because I felt I had accomplish nothing.

The past two weeks have been good.

I had an awesome meet up gathering with my fellow secondary school section mates. We had steamboat for dinner at Caiyu’s place. These people, they never failed to amuse me. Despite of graduating from secondary school about 6 years ago, I am glad that these group of people that I am in touch with are still the same people I have known then. The juniors, well, they are my kids. I can’t help but to ask them every time we meet how’s their life going and whatsnot. They are growing up well, except for Maimunah. She needs to work on using less vulgarities and be less angst. But it’s okay, she’s still young and learning. And awww Tiffany, we are missing you! Come back soon please!

That night after steamboat, I made a new friend. Well, more like stranger turned friend. It’s purely coincidental because she was lost and unsure where’s her block is. Mind you, she’s only been in Singapore for 5 days. So apparently, she dropped at the wrong stop and her stop is actually after mine. And cut story short, I helped her find her way home. During the walked to her place (because there are no more buses and it was nearly 1am!) we talked and all. A very nice lady to meet and exchanged number after that. Been texting each other for awhile and probably going to meet up for lunch or something. I like the feeling of making new friends. (:

Just last Thursday, I had a really short 2 days 1 night trip to Batam with Nina, Syaa and Aminoor. It’s really a short trip but it was awesome and refreshing. And I never had some much food in my life for 2 days straight before! The minute we met, we have been munching non stop. Ah, the feel of being a millionaire for the trip. And the food is really cheap and my tummy have no rights to complaint because I have been filling it with awesome good food. The sunset was breath taking, especially in the evening when we were on the way back to Singapore. Breath taking scenery makes people like me and Nina happy. Had bowling games as well and my skills have totally turn rusty. Massage for a good one hour was nice. My body felt goooooood. Heheh. And I went for swim after so long of not doing so. I miss being in the water and I probably should start swimming again, soon. I wonder why I stop doing so anyway.  And I totally survived S$50 for the trip, with some spare of Rupiahs too. A really well deserved short budget trip 😀

To conclude the best time of the past two weeks is with the boys’ BBQ burger held at Pasir Ris Park on Sunday. I have to say, hands down, on their preparation of food provided during the barbeque. The highlight of the whole thing is definitely Ong’s beef patty speciality. And he made it from scratch! I was expecting some ready made patty of some sort but no, he actually made it from the start! Not only the beef patty, but the coleslaw was delicious and Fairuz’s bake potato with cheese and coleslaw was mouth watering. Nina’s mum stingray too. It’s OMG, delicious food heaven for the night. Didn’t regret not coming at all. And this was something not to be missed. Having the boys to organize an outing and on top of that, preparing of food? It’s once in a blue moon kind of thing. If you miss it, you got to have for awhile to have such things from them again. Apart from the food, being with the friends you are comfortable with and juniors who came by, simply the best of things you can wish for in the middle of hectic life schedule.

The downside of my life currently is the final year I am doing in my course. The only thing that is actually motivating me to finish up this level is the plans that I am planning after this. But that can only get me going to some point. I am actually fighting this procrastination side of myself that it’s pretty much amusing to how I always give in to my procrastination side. It’s only the beginning of 4th year but I am pretty much feeling the pressure of the workloads that need to be done in this final lap of my course. I have the right to complain my unhappiness and whatsnot but what can I benefit from doing all this complaining? I still have to move the fuck on and continue to do what a student suppose. After all, this is the final lap in completing my course and I should, by right, give my all to this. Distraction is always there and once awhile, I give in to distraction. But too much, I am left behind. Right now, I am greatly distracted with no motivation to do what i am suppose to do. On top of this course, I have another classes to attend weekly and that too, takes my time. And that’s the main reason why I quitted my job, for those who truly don’t understand enough why. I just hope that I can survive this final lap of school with minimum damage done to my psychological well-being as well as health. I’m gaining and losing weight almost all the time. It makes no sense at all.

Then again, since when I make the most sense of my life? Tsk.

till then,
toodles!

>Happy TWENTY.ELEVEN!

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I concluded 2011 by spending the last week of it in South Korea, Seoul. Nothing beats being overseas, out of the hectic Singapore and greeting the new year overseas with your 3 crazy friends plus one more who’s webcam-ing from the homeland. With the chilling weather and white snow, 2010 has ended and hello 2011. (:

Or not.
2010. It had been one hell of a crazy year. Things happened this year was like woah and like woah. In all honestly, among the bad times I had and those times that I had attempted to run away and hide from the world, I have no idea how I managed to get out of it. It’s like one minute I am there, the next minute I am not. The time in 2010 has been uber fast and right now, I am having slight trouble remember which events took place respectively. 2010 was about the things I had done and failed miserably and picking up the pieces again. It’s about how that small gesture can brighten up one life. It’s about moving on from the heartbreaks and sorrows from 2009. 2010 had not been a relatively good year for me overall. But one thing for sure, my 2010 had been childish. I turned 21 in 2010 and the only different I feel about myself is that I grew, sideways. Resolution #1: To lose weight! (again!) HAHA. To sum up my 2010, it had been crazy.
I reflected on myself in 2010. Sadly, I haven’t been all year round. I had this self battle within the self. Eric Erickson’s theory eh, on finding the identity stage. I think, in away, I had grown up to be slightly more matured than before and had this huge amount of angry, angst and hatred growing in me. I turned 21in 2010, with no dreams, no plans for my life. And sadly, like really sadly, I am actually okay with the plan-less future and pretty much am comfortable with it. But who am I kidding? Everyone thinks I am nuts and stupid and crazy and stuff like that. They have that set of “requirements” or whatever you call that of me. They expect me to be dadada and yayaya and lalala. I am really sorry to those that had faith in me and that I had truly disappoint you. I am 21, I get it. I need to get the future right and all. But I need that time, to think and reflect on what I really want to do. I am still standing firm with going with the flow with time because that is what suits me right now. Resolution #2: Get a life? Plan something little along the way. 
I really do (:
HA. Nope, I did not find anyone special in 2010, nor am I in a relationship. And I am really not in love with anyone. Sorry to disappoint all of you, especially my dear friends ^^. The time will come for the right one, but not now. I am not ready to compromise things to be another person and definitely not ready to ‘sacrifice’ time. I had crushes, eyecandy along the way but nothing more than that. Perhaps, in 2011 will be the year? But nah, I doubt so. 
Here I go again on how I appreciate every single one of my friends and how important they are in my life. While we are still here, standing strong with our friendship going on, nothing else matter. Thank you are just words that can never express how much I really appreciate them. Especially those, who had been there all the time. I have no idea what will I do without them. To all, thank you for the awesome (and sad) memories created throughout the year in 2010.  (: 
I have no idea what is installed for me in 2011. I have no idea what to expect. I have plans, but not plans that will lead me to my future. I expect a little more of the heartbreaks and a little more of the setbacks in life. 2011 should be there where I have to sit down somewhere, have a talk here and there with people I trust regarding my life and hopefully by 31st Dec 2011, when people ask me what’s next after degree, I have the answer to their question. I want to get out of the country this year, too. Philippines in June with the girls. And end year, damn, I need the end year overseas plan. Anyone? Did I mentioned I had a job in 2010? Ha. Probably quitting and getting another one. Don’t ask, just don’t. 
p/s: I had plastic surgery in Korea. 
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I AM JUST JOKING. THAT’S JUST A FACIAL MASK I HAD ON. (:
It’s for Susu (she was webcamming with me). To give her a laugh on her birthday because I couldn’t be there to celebrate with her. 
HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR PEOPLE (:
wishes you a great year ahead! 
till then,
toodles!

>Raya 2010!

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To all my Muslim relatives and friends.,
Di hari dan bulan yang mulia ini, saya ingin mengambil kesemepatan ini untuk meminta maaf atas kesalahan yang saya telah melakukan kepada sesiapa dan juga gurauan saya yang membuat anda marah. 
translation: On this special day and month, I would like to take this opportunity to apologise for the wrong doings I have done to anyone and this includes the teasing and such which had make you angry. 

With that, 
SELAMAT HARI RAYA! (:

The first day was nice, running back and fro from my house to grands’.
Random talks, super-a-lot teasing, birthdays celebration.
Food, and more food.
Catch up session, future plans with cousins.
Couldn’t ask for more. 

Meet my super cool fierce Grands! (:

Happy 71st Grands!
Happy 17th Boys! 
(and no, they are not twins but cousins. just a day or few hours apart)
Cousins 
(dad&mum’s side)
More at Facebook. 
till then, 
toodles